Today I have witnessed a miracle.
Furthermore, you have sent me a sign. All of my mistakes are forgivable All that I need is some time. The tears that have fallen are memories From the past and the hopes left to die I will not now forsake all the tragedy But it's time to see the guilt left behind. There's a place that I dream called eternity Where the light is allowed, forever shine Where the darkness and void's an absurdity And the strength of the soul becomes divine Here's the ink of the past, left invisible And a moment's reflection fades away A conclusion left out is permissible When your heart is left raw on display. The jagged edge of the sword slices through the pain As a martyr wages war against pride The time spent lost in the depths of the terror reign Fade away as the world comes alive An inferno of fear and anxiety Leaves the reader to question the toll The facade of a character in society Crumbles down as you step out of the role. Freedom comes with a price of insanity Kindness dances alongside a mockery But to willing give up your humanity Is to dance with emotional poverty The tears that have fallen are memories From the past and the hopes left to die I will not now forsake all the tragedy But it's time to see the guilt left behind. Today I have witnessed a miracle. Furthermore, you have sent me a sign. All of my mistakes are forgivable All that I need is some time.
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Today I arise with my passion restored.
I'm hugging the cactus, then closing the door On the path where anxiety can serve me no more As I step forward, now reaching, for the joy that's in store. The cycle now broken and I've learned to let go Knowing my worth doesn't rely on the show While others wield swords, I bask in the flow Of raising my arms and giving in to The Glow. I have good days; great days
Days that are absolutely amazing I have bad days; days that terrify me I can't possibly get through this day... And then I do. I have moments so glorious I must surely be dreaming And memories so traumatizing How did I ever make it this far? Yet I have. There are times when I give up For a moment or many more Then there are racetracks of faith Then grace of blessed change I now call it rhythm. You see these days that are life They were never meant to stay long They will churn, ebb and flow Until one day they must cease Forever our unique moments So I still show up for each day Sometimes after dusting myself off. Some days my best isn't good enough Some days my worst is more than enough My halo held up by my horns. We all serve a purpose Each day starts an idea Another chance to write a chapter Another story to leave behind My legacy continues. So eat the damn ice cream. Lift your face to the sky Let the wind swirl across your skin Feel these moments and fight Dance in the rain Hear the thunder and sigh Let each spec touch your soul Walk with grace and live life. I sit awake and cry
But the Moon becomes forgiving tonight Softly calling out to me With the glowing of her light My hands are numb and trembling My eyes only feel the strain Ever seeking of the next respite Faith beyond this blinding pain The churn within my body now Nausea barely kept at bay Dare I wave the flag of ivory? Or hold my ground in grit and stay? A cold surrounds this spirit Its demons howl just out of sight The laughter from the hellhounds' cackle Make it hard to stay in this fight Am I the only one that sees it? The truth beyond this mask The game of life forever forging A double edged sworded task The few that I allow entrance in The catacombs where my thoughts reside Don't often know the dangers lurking Within the matrix where I hide So as the dark creeps into dawn The haunting chill begins to fray Reveals a weary soul left battle worn But the foe's been kept at bay The sun beams now Crest horizon A brilliant rendering of new New day starts; new silver lining Darkness reveals life's emotional hue. They told me I'm broken
That I'm not gonna make it This reality's spoken To get by I must fake it Live my life like it's make-believe Give up my voice just to call myself free But there's just not enough time So here's a toast with my cheap wine Call me a rebel, I've spoken It's the system that's broken We get lost inside the noise Cherish not people, but the toys Screaming out; hope to fight the pain Drown free thought with this numbing reign Just one more shot of this whiskey Don't even care if we're tipsy Feel all alone even in a crowd Man, I should really put this bottle down. They told me I'm broken That I'm not gonna make it This reality's spoken To get by I must fake it Live my life like it's make-believe Give up my voice just to call myself free But there's just not enough time So here's a toast with my cheap wine Call me a rebel, I've spoken It's the system that's broken The outrage is starting now We've gone back fifty years somehow Trapped in political hurricane Like running from a tidal wave So now we must break this wall And watch the whole system fall Rebuild with a joyous voice For freedom means having choice They told me I'm broken That I'm not gonna make it This reality's spoken To get by I must fake it Live my life like it's make-believe Give my voice up to call myself free But there's just not enough time So here's a toast with my cheap wine Call me a rebel, I've spoken It's the system that's broken So standing here at the ledge My will as sharp as this razor's edge Riddle me this as I get inside your head I'm more alive with every lie you shed. You told me I'm broken That I'm not gonna make it That reality's spoken To get by I must fake it Live my life like it's make-believe Give my voice up to call myself free But there's just not enough time So here's a toast with my cheap wine Call me a rebel, I've spoken It's the system that's broken I haven't written in a very long time...but this just flowed out tonight in less than 10minutes...
From out of the darkness Reaching for the light A long awaited madness Reaches out tonight I'm boxing up my shadows A peace within the night Living with a heart wide open For once in my life Living with a heart wide open I think I found my fight There's a fire within me growing I'm casting out the pain Tell the Universe I'm going And I'll be on my way I can drive or walk or crawl there But I'm dancing with my faith Living with a heart wide open My heart's song now I'll play Living with a heart wide open Just smile; get out my way In this life a thousand choices Sometimes the hardest is the best I'll take this chance to raise my voice to A thousand answers to this test With the power of a passion It's time to soar out of this nest Living with a heart wide open There ain't no time, no time to rest Living with a heart wide open Don't need to second guess From out of the darkness Reaching for the light A long awaited madness Reaches me tonight I'm boxing up my demons I'll sleep in peace tonight Living with a heart wide open For once in my life Living with a heart wide open I think I found my fight Living with a heart wide open That's right m, I've found...my fight. Lurching darkness surrounding
A creeping of the night Excruciating pain again The ache a blinding light A tortured soul continues Down this corridor of trolls All hope will soon be shred again With the burn of ancient scrolls The laughter plays in fog once more A haunting of the mind The hollowness of fraud you see As she walks a risky line A brutalizing world has spun The knots of joyless doubt A smile forced upon her lips Raging within, a silent shout. This world bereft of angels’ grace Devoid of compassion The needs of few outweigh the great An instant fatal attraction A selfish world has been left numb Manifest a reaper’s win Decomposing intellect Each body now a coffin. Strangers rushing by
Don't even question why Think their compass now has died So here I sit alone and sigh Here I pray Hear my cry I'm lost amongst the din so loud Alone though standing in a crowd Feigned neutrality screamed aloud All bereft, and yet not one head bowed Seeds now sowed Wait until settling of the dust cloud So try to find the ways I'm blessed Hope to find the peace to rest Try again after each failed test But ever try, a soul possessed My fear oppressed Mission confessed Why must some always play a part? Can’t just follow their own heart Refuse to see the brilliant stars For just what they really are Faith reservoir New repertoire This moment will never pass again The greatest test of foe or friend The choice of who we are a trend Gratitude; to keep or send When refusal now to bend Is just a means to an end So can you see my blood and tears? That I have spilt over these years Every time that I switch gears Avoiding laughter and the sneers Facing fears Falls on deaf ears My reflection now is not the same As I play such a different game A once pure reignited flame Now a bruised and battered name Broken hearts still bleed the same Evil not always sharing blame A suspension now of disbelief Aided by the rushed relief Of hope replacing every grief Anxiety a bully; thief With memory a crumpling leaf Insanity a great motif. It’s okay not to be okay… For right now. I wrote this a couple of years ago, but it resounded again today and I had never added it, so here it is:
The miracle of a Pearl. Without some sort of invading parasite, irritant, or damage, a beautiful pearl cannot be created in the depths of an oyster. To some, I'm that irritating grain of sand, leaping or even grinding into your space and challenging you to address the discomfort you may find. For it's never really the situation...but how you REACT to the situation that matters. To others - and I believe a much higher number exists here - I am the oyster. Usually minding my own business, trying to survive, but also creating wonderful things as I go, trying to leave behind a beautiful legacy if I can. Until you ask for help or dig into my world demading that help, I cannot guide your growth into what you were perhaps meant to become. We all need help sometimes. I believe we all have a purpose on this Earth. Without the vast Ocean of Life around me and the right conditions of pressure and time, I, myself, cannot do what I am meant to do. But, maybe, just maybe, together, we can create a shiny new world...at least in our own little corners of it. Those who are crazy enough to think they can change the world...are usually the ones that do. Starting humming, then penned this, in less than 10minutes:
There's a light at the end of the tunnel Gotta keep crawling to There's an answer to all of these puzzles Just gotta keep piecing through Just when you think you have all the answers Another shoe gets dropped Surrounded by all this verbal cancer How many more feet to stop? So have a seat and just let it all pass Or maybe next is the place where I ask Chorus: No rest for the wicked No easy road to take Just remember no limits Than only those you make. So keep reaching for greatness Leave your legacy behind No rest for the wicked For wicked is losing time (End chorus) There's a moment in weakness Just gotta keep breathing through Live your own life uniqueness Ignore the hate; keep doing you So when you think you're alone now Look up and keep holding on to faith Wipe the sweat from your brow now Keep ahead of the doubtful demon's chase You must keep reaching out for more You cannot imagine what's still in store Chorus No rest for the wicked Remember who you are No rest for the wicked Latch on to your shooting star Chorus There's a light at the end of the tunnel Just gotta keep crawling to There's an answer to all of these puzzles Just gotta keep piecing through No rest for the wicked One day, one step, one breath at a time. No rest for the wicked Keep your smile and save your rhyme. |
Julie WestphalAuthor, Poet, Dreamer Archives
February 2024
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