I’ve spent a lifetime stuck in the silence
Never believed that I’d have something to say If no one can hear me then no one can break me A life in the shadows ‘til I find my way But there’s something about you; something I’ve yearned for A light to the darkness; a flame to my soul Calm in the chaos; a piece to the puzzle Challenging where I thought I wanted to go Chorus You took my hands We shared the dance I want this chance I surrender somehow To the world you create Where dreams hide away My voice now untamed I surrender somehow I surrender to the now. Time to stop hiding; I’m risking the fall now Leaning forward on the edge; I’ll survive Feeling less broken; I’ve gotten stronger Obscurity clears; a new mosaical life People are powerless without a reaction I hear the music in my heart beating strong Calm in the chaos; a piece to the puzzle Something I’ve known all along Chorus x2 Something tells me that I’ve found A world I create Where dreams hide away My voice now untamed… I surrender to the now.
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Wave upon wave
Emotional rage A freefall dynamic once more Rattled I cycle to the floor. For a chameleon again Both enemy and friend Unbiased the walls had been raised Chiseled No longer unphased. A whiteout remains The loyal cremains A simplified vision encore Shadows Beyond a closed door. Now imagine with me This enigma, you see A yellow brick road journey home Witness My moment alone. An understatement
Reality Something better than dreamed before A newly found Insanity So I step through opportunity’s door This new beginning A hopeful path Ever guarding my wary heart But life’s adventure A challenge torch An infinite reach; forever to start I am fallible More flawed than some More perfect than ever you see Emotional calm Mosaical life An ebb and flow to the beautiful me Life in the shadows Never for me I remain ever limitless Memories sparkle A song in my heart For what if this was my last first kiss? I still find wonder in this world
Amazed by simplistic things Where beauty calmly whispers out Rare gems that give thought wings The commonplace really camouflage When chiseled, reveals a truth More profound than given credit for Why must I forget my youth? Encouraged to always act my age But to sacrifice for whom? For innocence shall keep me young Regret I now entomb. For laughter is my guiding light A ready smile will seal my fate I soar with merriment in my heart With open arms and live elate. So join me now and dare to dream Be careful I might just set you free I’m so much more than what I seem For I live unapologetically me. Life is full of sacrifice. Everyone has to make decisions, compromise; no one gets their way 100% of the time, every time. Although I feel I have sometimes sacrificed more than my fair share, I also know that my sacrifices have helped carve the me that exists today. A few nicks here. More scars there. Add a little joy and padding, then trim away some anger and rough edges. Pack on a bit of wisdom. Sledgehammer a few walls. Cry out a bit in frustration and sweat through a few doubts. Then, as I am doing now, dance around in absolute merriment. The resounding statement that I am trying to make is this: Life is what you make of it. It's never the situation, but how you REACT to the situation. If you go all in, you cannot ever say you regret not trying. Sacrifice does not always mean that you are giving up what you want, it means you have chosen to try for something even better, so there can be no true failure. Besides, I'd much rather spend my time time enjoying the company of birds than spend it wishing I had wings.
The physical definition deals with the pumping of blood throughout the corporeal body. The manifestation of the word as I know it means: the embodiment of compassion, caring for those who do not always have a voice, having courage to start something big, and not giving up in the face of adversity. Heart, this vital sense of one's being, is prevalent in only those who allow themselves the true freedom of self. Daring to open themselves up to failure; celebrating in successes; striving to push forward, regardless of odds. My life experiences always lead me back to one basic premise: Do you have the heart to continue this path? There have been times that I have not had enough heart to finish something...but there have been more times that I have. Today I celebrated 10 years on an amazing journey and I am reminded: moving forward is key; keep getting back up...and always one more time. One Day, One Step, One Breath at a time. I am lying here tonight with my just-turned-10 year old Guinness in my arms, feeling the strong and steady gallumph-gallumph of his life against me, smiling and dreaming of my future once again. One thing is for certain: I am smack-dab in the heart of the matter. Life life without regret, for it is far too short to be anything but happy.
I was thinking today, while I was singing to my newest favorite song. Life is really like an unanticipated playlist of songs. If you were to sing a single note or hold a single tone for any length of time...eventually it will just become noise. Irritating. Obnoxious. Joyless. It's the change in the notes that we are listening for, determining if we like or dislike a particular melody. It is the change in the harmonies, the variation in the keys, that defines that which is music. Sometimes these songs are beautiful and ease our angst. Sometimes you dance across the Earth, laughing and carefree...and sometimes the melancholic rhythms remind us of our weary hearts and battles lost. Our lives are just one long, unknowable playlist of notes... so we might as well dance while we can...and create our own Music of Life.
There’s a song in my heart
And a warmth that the fire brings May this Season be bright As I’m sitting here listening To the echo of peace Every lost hope now brought to life Christmas is calling me The staring faces tonight What to a shock to the normalcy But to them I am blind For all I see is you watching me As the lights start to fade The ebb and flow of cacophony Christmas is calling me Chorus: One day you’ll understand There is more than I show So if you choose to take my hand I just want you to know I’m getting more open with time But what I’m hoping you’ll find Is that I’m… Elegantly unrefined The sparkling silver and gold Paired with laughter surrounding me And adventures untold There is hope in obscurity I am twirling tonight Unveiling the purest me The Season is calling me We now dance to a song I look up and your eyes meet mine We keep moving along There is power in losing time As you smile back at me There’s been no reason or rhyme But the New Year is calling me Chorus Step by step We laugh the night away But with each new breath I know why you just cannot stay Away Chorus I’m getting more open with time But I’m hoping you’ll find That I’m Elegantly Unrefined |
Julie WestphalAuthor, Poet, Dreamer Archives
February 2024
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