Finally now I risk being seen
No longer enclosed by the veil A still beating heart once numbed by indifference Now freed from the human illusion The past is a memory, the future a dream The present my only reality An extraordinary journey dominates the pain With a lost love my only confusion Impossible now encompassed by faith I am freed from paralyzing fear Harmonizing with joy, illuminating my life Doubt condemned to its own execution Colliding with fate yet dazzled by grace Conspiring my future’s potential The universe giving; I dance in its charm Consumed by the next revolution I’m ever improving, accepting of ego Cultivating innovative ideas Defending distinction; refusing the censor Precision with no substitution A thoughtful procession uniquely bestowed Assessing the variants surrounding Ever refining and always forgiving Gifted nothing but full absolution.
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There are no guarantees as these years pass on by
So when loneliness creeps through the sieve I must choose to live truth instead of a lie Though I cannot forget, I forgive These demons around don’t condone me to change So I claw my way back from regret I find strength in my moments of weakness and pain Must let go of emotional debt The flicker and burden; being trapped in the past I choose to move forward once more So here comes the pain, but disintegrates fast While fueling my impulse to soar Tonight I now find I’m at peace with myself Although not the last tear I shall cry I’ll gently rest all of my cards on the shelf Not yet ready to tell them goodbye The dust can now settle as I make a new path A foundation from which again build Trusting the universe; calming the wrath Tripping on paradise, skilled As I dance through my life, emotions unchained A limitless soul I can bring I’m willing to shatter; my purpose sustained The music of feelings, I sing The aim of my life here yet still unknown But I’ll not entertain any doubt Exploring the greatness and sharing my own Reaping life; well-lived throughout The moments, they change, yet memories live on My present is built from my past Love all, trust few, yet do harm to none. My future is yet unsurpassed. Oh, how time changes the paths we must climb
Once more I'm here asking, punished for what crime? I’ve not mastered how to bend So I shatter once again These fragments rely now solely on time. The pieces are jagged, but rebuilding starts now Lacerating the memories, bleeding for the how Developing stronger A weakness no longer Relinquish restraint; this primal urge I allow Assessing the damages done to my soul Peering through shards as I silence the echo If in the end I don’t lose The win I still will not choose. For the reward only comes when you risk losing control. When faced with temptation, I willfully agree My song yet unsung; hope resides within me For I know that I can; Now envision my plan Always step forward with peace and honesty My heart I wear openly; now rarely hold back I live in the moment; take up every slack For life - no guaranty So smile – they’re free! My mission ongoing; my purpose on track Moments never repeat, so be sure to be kind Sadly in life, there is no simple rewind A potential unrealized If the shadow's idealized For what you seek is not always what you choose to find. Instead for you possibility now fades While I discover words can be sharper than blades But it’s far worse to have sight And no vision in life Than to be blind to my thoughts and my faith that pervades So now I can find greatness while pushing aside The confusion of wondering just when time will collide For my Heaven is here My faith in the fear For if you tell me I can’t, you’re on the wrong side. I often forget to fight for myself
More concerned about the others life brings The infinite space between doubt and a faith An angel flying with her own mended wings Afraid of the nothingness ever on edge Some experiments going awry But constantly leading me closer to Grace A path I can no longer deny. Finding the strength to keep climbing these walls Tortured souls keep on calling my name Unable to live with the hatred existing It’s why I keep playing this game I feel much more deeply than I’ll lead to believe Reactive to the world that surrounds The details do matter; our actions are key But I flourish in the peace that abounds Unresolved situations nourish guilt and the pain Made tolerable in the presence of poise The flicker in solitude; one with my flame Can help me see beyond all of this noise I’m thankful these moments, so small yet in tune With my need for reversing the nuisance Are weaving the dreams I’m destined to create I feel that’s what it means to be human. There were no butterflies as we met
Written 05/19/13...
These words came to me last night, and as always, I let them flow out. Dedicated to Mary and her little Sparky, who crossed the Bridge on May 16th, 2013. And so I’ve said goodbye today Another flame’s blown out The tears are gently falling now With memories about. I understand it was your time It doesn’t ease the pain My heart – it feels like it will burst It aches to think your name. I look for you each step and turn I listen for your bark The simple things I smiled at The warmest ever Spark The house was yours, your palace; King The joys of life you knew And as I think about your Bridge I know you love the view. Imagine how you trot about Demanding things to change For if you’re gonna be the Prince There’s much to re-arrange Time is but a one way road We travel our own pace And then I knew your time was short I saw it on your face You told me it was time to go I knew the time was right. I never thought we’d have these years… But you were worth the fight. So as you lay, warm in my lap I did the best I could To give the gift of peace to you Just like you knew I would. Your spirit now is free and flies Your earthly body gone. And all your love that’s carried me Will help me carry on Something deep inside me knows You’re watching over me Waiting for the day to come When I’ll be finally free. The bond we shared, the life we lived The warmth inside my heart Will have to see me through this too… My precious little Spark. Written 04/29/13...
The world has lost another flame A driving force, a soul untamed The world now darker, just a shade. My friend you shall be missed. The first step we believed was fate And now you stand at Heaven’s gate With angels wings you’re now elate But why did you leave like this? Regret and guilt now multiply I’m sifting back through sands of time To find the edge of all the whys The future now dismissed. I know that you now smile down This second step much more profound With memories cascading ‘round Your plea I can’t resist. So as you start the angelic climb I’ll celebrate in peace sublime One Life to Love, I realize Here’s to the ironic twist! This world has lost another flame I raise my glass, my soul untamed The world now darker, just a shade. To you, Wade, I insist! Will you still be here as I sleep?
Your soul to guide me; my heart to keep? I now lay down my weary head But tears still tumble to the bed. It’s been so short yet feels so long The time now spent here on my own. The dreams we had have shattered fast And now I cling tight to the past. I fear your memory will fade away With each new passing every day So I must remember you liked my smile; Knowing you’d be here such a short while. The angels called; life flickered away We both then knew you could not stay. Prayers; thoughts; spells were cast Still we hoped until the last. But then the sands of time slipped down The final grain fell to the ground. I then kissed your cheek and said farewell; The hardest act, this earthly hell. But somewhere hope resides in me That one day when my soul flies free At Heaven’s Gate, I’ll see your face Until then, I’ll snuggle in love’s embrace. If a heart starts to freeze
It becomes easy to shatter. But supply it generously with multiple sources of love It merely stutters in times of stress. A brief palpitation. A recovering arrythmia. Because the vessels remain open to change. |
Julie WestphalAuthor, Poet, Dreamer Archives
February 2024
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