So, I should be packing. I really “should”. But I can’t right now. Why? Because my mind is going in a billion different directions, racing in some ways at the speed of light, sauntering around yet other thoughts, and reflecting upon the last moments, hours, days, weeks, months, and even years.
Being in my head is overwhelming. I should know. I’m an active participant! Ha! But I keep coming back to one crucial thought: Faith. I have faith that things happen for a reason – even if we have absolutely not one whit of a clue as to why. Faith that I will overcome my obstacles. Faith that I am making the right decisions. Faith that I will be able to build up and complete my dreams. I’m not ready to share all of the details yet with anyone, but I had a spectacular “lightbulb moment” today and I know EXACTLY what I want to build now. I am good at marketing, fundraising, love animals (duh), and love to create things. Let’s face it. I’m a pretty darn good person and Changing the World, One Pet At A Time is a great goal for someone like me. But now I know how to do it better. I can’t even find another similar idea on Dr. Google, so maybe I have found my million-dollar idea finally! Now…just to get the business plan underway amidst all of the other mental flora that is overgrown in my head. I have no idea the time frame on this one, but maybe…just maybe…by the year 2017…would be a good goal time frame for me Then, there’s this pesky little thought in my head about my trip to Ireland, my Bucket List, and so many other desires, goals, and wants. But I have faith. That little by little, day by day, I can accomplish ALL of my dreams. Because, in all reality, my bucket list is ever changing as I do just that! Everyone knows I’ve faltered in my life – who hasn’t?!? But what makes me who I am is that I keep getting back up, dusting myself off, and trying the next rodeo. I’ve discovered that my soul is an unstoppable force and my drive and determination possess unyielding power. I have Faith that I was meant to do more. I feel most complete not when I have money (I commonly give away advice or training help), power (yeah…right…not something I ever really needed because I tend to create my own), or stand in the spotlight (I actually try and avoid that most days, as ironically enough my social confidence and EQ are quite low on the standard, even if my IQ is impressive) ...but when I have an effect on others. My effect onothers is my life's legacy. The ability to change just a small part of how they view, say, animals or behavior, veterinary medicine, or even just helping others feel happy. The peace that comes when I can help someone else smile. In the chaos…like here in writing…there is also a vast silence. I can meditate on this wondrous Earth and find my spirit friends to counsel with when I feel lost or burdened. It is within this silence that we find out who we really are. It is within this silence that we find our Light. For many years, I allowed fear to run my life and my light was pummeled into places that it almost didn’t recover from. But we all have the ability to change. Adapt. Modify. I don’t let fear run my life anymore. I am who I am. I guess I just finally started realizing one day that life happens FOR me…not TO me. I have the choice to make my life matter. I have faith that I can leap my obstacles and come out grinning on the other side. Heard this song on the radio yesterday and instantly fell into dancing and smiling. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JCLY0Rlx6Q) Suddenly, all of the bad mojo surrounding me in that moment was gone and it was all going to be okay. Whether anyone believes me or not, there are 525,600 moments in a year. Choosing to make the majority of those into positive ones - whether they change your life or just turn your frown upside down - your statistical data set will be well beyond the curve. Period. It’s basic math.
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